Wait. Stop those assumptions! I can hear them already. It’s not about creating a new me because if I’m being completely honest with myself, I’m far too lazy for such an endeavor.
I’m currently dealing with the end of the semester papers and projects. My last final is on the twenty-first of December so I’m not entirely optimistic about “seeing the light at the end of the tunnel”. It’s quite pitched black, if you’d ask me.
The end of the semester also means Christmas and New Years. Naturally, I’ve been reflecting on my life this past year. So much has changed. I thought 2014 was a year of learning for me. Boy was I wrong. 2015 has been…interesting. Honestly, it’ll probably take me until this time next year to find the words for what 2015 was to me.
It feels different though. Something is different. I guess, I’m different. That sounded cheesy? I apologize. I can’t help it. I love cheese.
Maybe this is what growing up feels like? You know, finding yourself. I really don’t want to forget this time in my life. I guess that’s why the urge to blog more and the thought of starting a YouTube is getting more and more strong as the days go by.
I don’t think the fear has gone away. I can definitely still feel the fear in me. But now fear is someone I want to say hello too.
That is how I’m going to start. I’m going to start saying ‘Hello’ to more things. So here’s to more people, to more places, to more feelings.
P.S. I suck at goodbyes.