off day, not an off life.

I really don’t mean for all these posts to be so gloomy because that’s not how I want to live my life and I certainly don’t want you to think I’m a gloomy person because frankly, I don’t think that I am.

However, I’ve been feeling so by myself and lonely. I’ve said before that I’m used to being alone but the feeling of loneliness is something I try to sweep under the rug. Blogging seems to help more than keeping a diary or journal. Plus, I’d like to think of you all as friends so if I could help a friend out in a similar situation, I will.

It sucks having no one to ring up and go hang out with. I’m trying to reach out to more friends but old habits die hard. I just feel like a burden or too needy. Doesn’t help I have trust issues myself.

So I think I’m going to make new goals for myself. Since, I’m no longer a student, I’ve been yearning for some sort of structure and something to work for.

  1. I NEED TO SAVE UP FOR A CAMERA. I know, I know. You all are dying to see my wonderful face. You don’t have to tell me again. Ha, I’m just kidding but I really feel like this blog is lacking without pictures. I feel like with a camera I can show you more aspects of my life than my thoughts that keep me up at night.
  2. HEALTH & FITNESS. Truly, I need to stop with the junk food. I need to find a personal trainer but before that, I need to change up my diet. Over the past few years, I’ve definitely let myself go in and I just need to get off my bum.
  3. GO OUT MORE. I’m literally always home if I’m not at work. It’s been so hard for me to go out alone but I think that’s something that needs to happen.
  4. JOB(S). I need to find a better paying job or at least another job because I cannot save money at this part-time retail job to save my life.

Oh, there are so many other personal goals I wish to achieve but for the time being, I’m going to really try and achieve some of these.

I already feel better after blogging. Thanks for listening. You’re the best.




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