I really don’t mean for all these posts to be so gloomy because that’s not how I want to live my life and I certainly don’t want you to think I’m a gloomy person because frankly, I don’t think that I am.
However, I’ve been feeling so by myself and lonely. I’ve said before that I’m used to being alone but the feeling of loneliness is something I try to sweep under the rug. Blogging seems to help more than keeping a diary or journal. Plus, I’d like to think of you all as friends so if I could help a friend out in a similar situation, I will.
It sucks having no one to ring up and go hang out with. I’m trying to reach out to more friends but old habits die hard. I just feel like a burden or too needy. Doesn’t help I have trust issues myself.
So I think I’m going to make new goals for myself. Since, I’m no longer a student, I’ve been yearning for some sort of structure and something to work for.
- I NEED TO SAVE UP FOR A CAMERA. I know, I know. You all are dying to see my wonderful face. You don’t have to tell me again. Ha, I’m just kidding but I really feel like this blog is lacking without pictures. I feel like with a camera I can show you more aspects of my life than my thoughts that keep me up at night.
- HEALTH & FITNESS. Truly, I need to stop with the junk food. I need to find a personal trainer but before that, I need to change up my diet. Over the past few years, I’ve definitely let myself go in and I just need to get off my bum.
- GO OUT MORE. I’m literally always home if I’m not at work. It’s been so hard for me to go out alone but I think that’s something that needs to happen.
- JOB(S). I need to find a better paying job or at least another job because I cannot save money at this part-time retail job to save my life.
Oh, there are so many other personal goals I wish to achieve but for the time being, I’m going to really try and achieve some of these.
I already feel better after blogging. Thanks for listening. You’re the best.